My Portion.

I wanted to take this time to share what I have spent the last seventy days doing on my walk with my Heavenly Father. Below is my testimony on being delivered from the sin of overeating. I have been taking part in a program called, The Lord’s Table which is available on www.settingcaptivesfree.com website. I now feed on the Lord and He satisfies me better than any food ever could. He is the “bread of life” as well as the “living water”. Praise be to the one who has helped me lose 25 pounds and gain a closer more real relationship with Him.

I, Tiffany Conn, was a glutton. I moved through my days looking forward to the next time I would eat. I turned to food, in happy and sad times. I used food as punishment and as comfort. I worshiped constantly at the altar of food. I never missed a day or a time to serve the god of overeating. I tried and participated in many different diets and weight loss programs. However, I always failed and ended up right back at the table feasting on shame pizza followed by a double scoop of guilt. I was overweight, lazy, and unhappy. It was a deep cycle with no hope. I felt like a failure and lived chained to a wall, unworthy of anything different. God brought me to me knees to see I was living in sin. He helped me to see that I was worthy enough for His Son to die in my place. 1Timothy 1:16 "But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his immense patience as an example for those who would believe in him and receive eternal life." Even though I was not treating my body in ways that pleased Him he sent His Son to die for me and to show me how to live. I cried to God, admitted I could not help myself and I need Him to break me from the chains food had over me. Through The Lord's Table program I learned that my focus was on the wrong things. I was living for my selfish desires which brought me moments of temporary empty satisfaction. I now crave His word and time at His feet. I no longer gorge myself on empty calories but feast on the bread and wine He gives in His word and presence. I no longer attempt to live for what the world offers with lies and falsehoods. I place my trust in the One who forgives and loves. I still fall, we all will, but my focus is on the victory the Lord gives over my sin. I no longer have to work within my ability to control my eating but on the strength the Lord provides when I trust and obey His word. God came into my stomach and my heart and He brings the true fulfillment. Psalm 73:26 "My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."

What is under your sink?

A few Sunday’s ago I had the house to myself and thought it would be the perfect time to clean and sort the cabinet under the kitchen sink. I do not know about the rest of you but I am pretty good at not thinking about a mess especially if it is hidden behind wooden doors. So I got down on the floor and pulled everything out of the cabinets. In no time I was surrounded by pots, pans, cleaning supplies, scrub brushes, sponges, dish drainers and strainers. As I peered into the empty cabinet I was amazed at what I saw left behind.
Here is a little side bar, a few weeks before this cleaning project we had an exterminator at the house for a small mouse problem. They had all been caught and disposed of in their final resting places. However, I did not think about what they might have left for us to remember them by. I was grossly mesmerized by what remained under the sink. Small pieces of blue trash which use to be a sponge scattered from corner to corner with little black dung pellets sprinkled on top. I couldn't believe that all of this mess was under the sink and I never saw any of it.
As I began washing everything in hot bleach water and scrubbing down the cabinet with an endless supply of Clorox wipes I was hit with the realization that my heart was just like that space under my sink. If we do not often examine our hearts in the light of God and His word we will not see the dirt and sin strewn about from corner to corner. When we get in and begin to fill our heart with God and His love and grace the things once hidden become transparently evident. It is then that we can take stock of those things, ask God to forgive us and remove the muck which once littered our hearts. I pray God will bring to light the grime concealed under my sink so I can make more room for Him. So, what is under your sink?